Ok, ok, I did not blog yesterday, after I answered your email questions, I found myself lost again in the Lord of the Rings Online...  Like I need to expose myself to another MMO...

What depresses me is how much better it is compared to Star Wars Galaxies.  To be honest, I like Star Wars more that the Rings (especially the films), but the makers of LOTR Online have found a way to capture the setting in a way that Galaxies has not.  The game has been very fun, and Brian and I are really having a blast running through the story and learning how to play (I am a Loremaster and he is a Hunter).

I have not decided to leave Galaxies, I hold out hope that a Chapter 6 will make Star Wars fun again... but I am having the some problem with LOTR as I am with Galaxies:

The people...  I want to enter these settings for the roleplaying and for the group play... so far, I have not ran into any roleplayers and the few fellowships Brian and I have tried, the other person had no interest working with the group to accomplish our quest.

Tonight, I will create a new character on the Brandywine server and look for the others who listen to SQPN in hopes to find people I want to spent times with.

I am still learning how the game works, I will do a fuller review of it later.

Lately, I have been blocked up, like a dirty dry well. I sit and stare at the computer screen, waiting for the words to flow... yet they have not. The work on the series is coming along well, but I am tired, and lack focus.

I can feel the stress flooding my body, but I don't know where it is coming from. I have met my deadlines, the series is on schedule... my only real source of stress is my own expectations. I debated for a long time, whether I should blog about anxieties that have racked my mind and body for the last month, but why shouldn't I share.

I have a vision for the site, and Brian is revved up to promote it, but I have no clue how to do the things I am wanting to do. So many stories are fighting for space in my head, and I need to find a way to get all of the ideas out.

Recently, I have spent most of my time working on the look of the site. (and I hope you all like the changes). But now it has come time to fill the site with content, and I am afraid I am going to build a site that in unintelligible to anyone but me. I have looked to my heroes (Star Wars and Star Trek), but frankly, I don't find either site useful or entertaining...

That last word is really the problem. I want this site to be more than just informative, I want it to be fun, and I know I have not accomplished that yet.

I think I am going to write up some companion books on the setting and incorporate them in the site, and to make them available through Cafe Press. The Chian'niu Origins will be coming out soon. I think I might just go meditate and goof off on Star Wars Galaxies until I calm down enough to write.